he or she?

alright. time for the details. basically the past few months have been very crazy and different. we've barely spent two weeks in our home due to lots and lots of traveling. 3 weeks in hawaii (for work) + 1 week in utah (thanksgiving) + 1 week in clovis, nm (for work) + 1 week in california (christmas) = 6 weeks on airplanes, in hotels, road trips etc. while i enjoyed being able to spend so much time with both of our families... i am so happy to be home in our bed. we actually planned to be heading back to hawaii for a few weeks this month but after a horrible throwing up experience in a random and disgusting mcdonalds... i put my foot down. can't do anymore traveling. i don't really like to complain, especially knowing stories that are ten million times worse than mine but i have basically been bed-ridden for the past 4 months. the nausea is getting so old and so is throwing up. i feel like i have to eat all the time. and i really mean ALL the time. i can have a huge meal and ten minutes later feel nauseous, keeping your stomach full at all times has become almost a stress for me. i feel like all i think about is what i can eat next. not because i have cravings or just want to eat... but because i know i will be bending over the toilet if i don't. i think it's getting better. it's sort of shifted from all day to mostly in the mornings (5 a.m. to around noon). i am very grateful for that. i feel horrible for anyone out there who throws up all day and for their whole pregnancy (my mom). not being able to keep anything down would not be fun and i am so grateful for the good solid hours that i do get almost every day. and really, when i think about it ... i will do anything in order to have a healthy baby. unfortunately because i have been so sick... i haven't really taken any pictures or written anything down. but oh well! i can only do better. i've read a lot and i really enjoy that. i absolutely love learning about what is going on inside me. we found out i was pregnant on september 30th. as of today i am 18 weeks and 1 day along. i'm due the 5th of june and we are absolutely ecstatic. i've recently been able to feel the baby and nothing makes me smile bigger. feeling little movements make me laugh. feels like popcorn popping in my belly.

grant has been absolutely amazing. from the minute he wakes up he jumps out of bed and runs to the kitchen to find me something to eat for breakfast. he has done the grocery shopping and also made the meals. i have made a few dinners here and there but i can barely go in the kitchen without wanting to die. i love him so much. he is such a selfless person and a very hard worker. he is going to be such a good daddy.


so we find out the sex at my 20 week appt. january 17th. at first i was a bit bummed that it wasn't earlier than that but now i am glad. since we are still decorating and working on projects, my goal is to have all the rooms decorated before the 17th so that then i can just focus on getting that room ready. still can't believe i am finally going to be able to decorate a nursery. would you believe me if i told you that i pretty much already have all the decor that i want for that room? he he.

any guesses on what we'll have? or what we want? we've had names picked out for both prior to this pregnancy. i can't wait to find out what it is!! oh and i have to say, obviously we are super excited for this baby but reading all the congrats comments below was and is so fun and makes it even more exciting. so here is a big hug from us to all of you. friends are the best.

i'm getting so excited to hold a baby in my arms. especially a newborn. i have always loved that newborn stage and i want to soak as much of it in as i can. tiny clothes and especially shoes just melt my heart. life is beautiful and god has everything so planned out and organized. watching my body change has been so interesting... he made our female bodies so perfectly for bringing a child into the world and then to take care of it. at least i try to focus on that when nothing fits and i only wear pajamas... :)

other than all of that big news, we've managed to sell two cars and buy two cars. paint the living room. unpack and organize our house from top to bottom. have a fabulous christmas (where our families SPOILed us to death). watch some good movies and just enjoy our time together. here's to a new year everyone! i want to make it the best one yet!

p.s. before i forget i just want to say thankyou to my shop customers for being so patient with me these last few months. i had to put my shop on vacation because it was too much for now but i do plan to open it back up eventually when things settle down a bit more.